Ages since the last post! It's back to basics then. One year had just whoosh past and many eventful stuff had happened. Happy ones, anguish ones, lonely ones(tons of them actually), etc. Yeap, oh well at least i am been through them and i cant wait to get out of school>< i know some skeptic ones would probably rebutt me:" i will die to go back to school!","i miss school and work sucks!" But still, it's not that i cannot empathise with you all, but we are really in a very different situation whereby all my close friends are either working/in army while i am in school like a prisoner(not saying that my current school friends are not close please dun misunderstand, you guys rock as well.)
Oh well, the purpose of this post is not to complain but rather to talk about 2 recent issues:
1. YES I FINALLY WON MY FIRST SINGAPORE POOLS TICKET! :DDDDDDDDD
yess suck it, big time money sucker Singapore pools!8D haven won a single ticket before until the match between Argentina and Germany. All thanks to Muller. And Klose. Oh and another scorer. Forgot your name but nontheless kudos to you as well(: Lovely 30 dollars to spend later with my AA team:D
now to the melancholy post:
2.Shittiest common test ever!
Disclaimer: this post will be super boring. It was actually meant for me to refer back and remind myself of the agony i went through and a slight boost to the morale of any egoists out there who love to step on other people. Skip it if u want!
HELL common test my foot. More like Uncommon test, in the sense all e questions were unbelievably not familiar. Gosh, I was even aiming for AAABB when i was meeting up with my teacher-mentor b4 CTS. I would be secretly buying fruits to pray and turning vegetarian for 1 week if i can just pass everything-.- I would never forget how tough it is, sleeping at wee hours of the night (1am or so), and then waking up at even wee-er moments(if there was such a word) at 4 am to continue to study. Some of you may have been thinking it's no big deal i have been/am doing that all the time, but HELLO me != you so if you are that godly, please continue to do so and see if you contract some disease and die off after u get ur straight A's :P
It was quite disastrous though,seeing how i crammed that much topics to study the day b4 the exams. Not only was it painfully stressful and unmotivating, it was super ineffective as well since the concepts could not really sink in as well. During the exam, when others were FURIOUSLY (yes furiously) writing, i was furiously panicking. I remember READING it b4 somewhere, but where and what was it about i was totally clueless. Felt immensely disappointed after every single exam, disappointing my teachers whom have high expectation for me , in myself for not starting earlier (i started in June Holiday Week 4 Thursday-Friday) and then having to go through that cycle again at night for another paper on the next day. Extremely thankful it is finally over now, and that experience of a short five day and seemed like a month. The worst will come soon when the teachers finish marking.
Here's a short summary of how terrible i have done and also a slight boost to your ego to whoever that's reading my blog:
28/6: First paper: SEA History, didnt study Decol, didnt study SEA economy, didnt study National unity and policy towards minority. Only glance through Asean. I was only banking on political structure, pre-war nationalism and JO. Hence, i could only answer 2 out 3 essay question. GUESS WHAT. I was so demoralized upon receiving the paper, that coupled with my acute stomachache i happily left the 3rd essay BLANK 0/25 marks. It was pretty difficult to concentrate with an uncooperative stomach and i realised i went on to go the gents for the next consecutive exams as well. Immensely torn after this exam, felt like awoling every of the subsequent exams. IF ONLY I STUDIED earlier. screw myself
30/6: 2nd paper: ECONS CASE STUDY, never read any lecture notes ever since the start of inflation = effectively means Inflation, Unemployment, Economic growth, Balance of Payment, International trade lecture notes UNTOUCHED til the dawn of common test. Got a rude shock when i first open the notes on 29/6 NIGHT/AFTERNOON. was really tiring and i tried to absorb as much as possible. thankfully Sean was there at night to summarise each topic for me and i had a set of summarized notes downloaded online. But then it wasn't enough to save me i must say. Just pray for the best that whatever rubbish i wrote make the tiniest bit of sense. reach home and prepare for thurs paper. Felt like burning everything.
1/7: 3rd paper: MATHS, complacency must have killed me. I was overestimating my ability and didnt touch statistics until the morning b4 the exam. Completely forgot about CLT/CC and alot of other conditions. Hell as it was, the air con have to add to my trouble. THe hall was FREEZING. I was shivering like an idiot behind and i couldnt even concentrate with the need to hold my pee in. Wasted alot of time on simple questions, letting my pride getting the better of me and ended up with a rude slap in the face due to leaving up to 20 marks blank-.- I couldnt hold it in anymore and went to pee, wasting another precious 5 min or so. Gosh, such a wasted paper which i could actually do way better.
1/7: 4th paper: COMPUTING, my all-time weakest subject. I was about to cry just studying this subjects, with ton of alien languages. Out of 20 topics, i managed only about 4): (file organisation, BNF, networking and was it OS? hmm) Combined with extreme fatigue both mentally and physically, this is a crazy subject to study. Seriously, i cursed and swear after reading each line of words. Google is my best friend here. I used it almost every line of revision and i still could not understand. Practical was horrendous, Theory part was more like a story-writing competition for me. Just throw in any random phrase that came into my mind, wanting the exam to end and looking at the clock more than the paper. SIGH
2/7: 5th paper:International History, terrible loads to study as well, skip china's economic growth, extension and end of cold war. Only glance through UN. This paper was way better than the SEA one. At least i did all e essays, albeit i didnt finish one. The questions was answerable, but it could have better if i studied earlier so that i wont spend half the time recalling that inflation due to oil crisis was 5.9 % to 15 % in 1965 to 1980, etc and actually writing out my essay. Was crying in my heart when the paper was over; really relieved not because of the good grades i will get like duh, but of the momentarily mental torture i am released from.
2/7: last paper: Econs essay, this was by far the worst out of the lot, upon receiving the question, i totally blanked out, couldnt rmb wht to write and how to write. I was seriously contemplating to just sleep and hand in a piece of blank paper, seeing how tired i am.5 days x 3 hours of sleep = 15 hours. A normal healthy kid would have been sleeping more than wht i slept in just 2 days. I hanged on though, writing random rubbish i could recall and thinking of what could have been better if i have actually spent my time studying than slacking the entire june holiday away. The paper was over in awhile and my rubbish wasnt even wrapped up as i simply dun have the strength to continue anymore.
Pondering over what i could have done now, the very least is to blog this experience down, and that could draw strength for this experience for subsequent exams i know a lot of you all there (yes you, stop pondering who) are really expecting me not to do well but i WILL prove you wrong. Will set plans to improve my scores and wait and see who gets the last laugh. I
