Many stuff have passed in this one year.风风雨雨我都走过了。But at this point of time, my world is in a spin too, similar to Chin yi's. I wonder why my inner world is in chaos, but still i hope time will heal me, letting me emerge as a better person.

Maybe this retainment have thought me something useful, where i could uncover people's nature or character in the process and try to understand things i could never have before. It has also allow me to see things in a simpler way, perhaps of what weijie perceived as “知足常乐”. I do not really have a habit of making new year resolutions, so i thought i should start small and not be greedy.

My new year resolution for the upcoming 2009 would simply be:
1. Everyone to be happy and peace.

Perhaps it will be fine. Just maybe

I remembered i went MDIS for my job orientation yesterday night. The marketing manager told us a somewhat meaningful quote which i thought i should remember.

"There was once a well with 5 frogs on the edge. Two jumped, how many frogs do you think are left?" he asked.
"3?" answered some CJC guy.
" Correct."
"Now there is another well with 5 similar frogs. Two decide to jump, how many frogs do you think are left now?" he questioned.
Sensing that this might be a trick question, Chee Guan naturally answered "0." Another guy answered 0 too.

He (marketing manager) laughed.

"5" i thought. However, i thought this was a rather stupid answer so i kept mum.

"Know what's the answer? i bet you all do actually. It's simple. Ya-5. no hidden tricks. It's just simplicity. When they decide to jump, they have not done that particular action yet. However when they actually do it, they or in this case you, may influence one or more of your friends to do the same thing. Same thing apply in life, you have decide to become successful/rich/happy etc, but have u actually do the things that will get you to that particular goal? So if you have not,why not be the brave frog then venture into the darkness of the well, subsequently bringing your 4 other frog friends with you along? You'll never know what is at the other end when you never try."

thought it was meaningful. However , didnt went for the training as the job was purely commissional. Doesnt really suit us.

“坚韧不拔，永不言败”


1212am. what a nice time.

I have been thinking hard, real hard these days. Yet i myself cant get the answer i want, deep down, i know i deserve it but at the same time every single part of mind and soul rejected this idea thoroughly. Perhaps it's fate and i should succumb to it, but growing up, falling down,i guess, is all part and parcel of life. I am determined (or i thought i will be) to definitely make next year a more meaningful one. As i have told simin, i am going to turn my worthless life into something or someone that is worth remembering.

Having said this, i need to thank everybody who helped me countless times along the way. People who have really go all e way or even saying 2 simple words of "jiayou" can really help. From this, i am really happy to know that i have a group of supportive friends/squadmates and even teachers. I have failed you all, but i need you all to know how MUCH i appreciate all your kind little gestures or huge efforts. goodbye, my beloved friends.

希望明天会更好。