I have been thinking hard, real hard these days. Yet i myself cant get the answer i want, deep down, i know i deserve it but at the same time every single part of mind and soul rejected this idea thoroughly. Perhaps it's fate and i should succumb to it, but growing up, falling down,i guess, is all part and parcel of life. I am determined (or i thought i will be) to definitely make next year a more meaningful one. As i have told simin, i am going to turn my worthless life into something or someone that is worth remembering.
Having said this, i need to thank everybody who helped me countless times along the way. People who have really go all e way or even saying 2 simple words of "jiayou" can really help. From this, i am really happy to know that i have a group of supportive friends/squadmates and even teachers. I have failed you all, but i need you all to know how MUCH i appreciate all your kind little gestures or huge efforts. goodbye, my beloved friends.
希望明天会更好。